this is what i've found

there are few things and even fewer people that can calm me down or ease my anxiety. i'm an extremely cautious slash nervous person and spend way too much time over-thinking things which should be considered insignificant. there are probably only three or four people who know what to do when i'm nearing that breaking point but when they're unreachable i've had to figure things out on my own. this is what i've found: illuminating my room with colorful "festive lights" my cousin sent me in a care package and listening to bing crosby sing about dreams of a white christmas and ye merry gentlemen on vinyl is one of the most relaxing slash comforting slash anxiety easing things. the memories of family gathered at the tree watching presents getting handed out or the smells of pine needles and peppermint. the scratch of the needle as bing crosby croons about the magic of christmas and the tiny colorful bulbs that dance around my window take me back to where i want to be.