somethings from the moon

lykke li @ 30,000 feet

2011-03-29T00:19:00.000-07:00

let it fall/let it fall
let it fall
let it fall

~~ringing~~ ~~chiming~~ rolling

rolling through my head

one over the other

let it fall
let it fall
let it fall

but i am not falling

i am ascending

higher/higher/higher
-----------------------coast
some thirty-thousand feet in the air

let it fall/let it fall

let it fall

let it fall

up over the pacific

so far down it just looks like sky

big blue eternity

spotted with clouds

let it fall

let it fall

let it fall

surprisingly soothing

for a ride in the sky.

the ever-growing wish list

2011-01-21T00:32:00.000-08:00

and now yet another piece of procrastination. being a broke college student has encouraged my head to fill with an ever-growing wish list of random items, necessary and unnecessary. since i can't get any of these items until my paychecks build up and i cover bills and groceries first, i write the list so as not to forget and as a motivational tool to spend as little of the money i do have as possible on frivolous things. so here it is:

tea kettle
shopping spree at urban outfitters
a travel mug
road trips: irvine, chico
vinyl from boo boo records
daisy by marc jacobs
polaroid film

can't get you outta my head

2010-12-12T20:27:00.000-08:00

hand on your heart

by jose gonzalez

well it's one thing to fall in love
but another to make it last
i thought that we were just beginning
and now you say we're in the past
look me in the eye
and tell me we are really through

you know it's one thing to say you love me
but another to mean it from the heart
and if you don't intend to see it through
why did we ever start?
i wanna hear you tell me
you don't want my love

put your hand on your heart and tell me
it's all over
i won't believe it till you
put your hand on your heart and tell me
that we're through
put your hand on your heart

they like to talk about for ever
most people never get the chance
do you wanna lose our love together
do you find a new romance
i wanna hear you tell me
you don't want my love

put your hand on your heart and tell me
it's all over
i won't believe it till you
put your hand on your heart and tell me
that we're through
put your hand on your heart
hand on your heart

look me in the eye
and tell me we are really through

lotus.

2010-11-18T00:25:00.000-08:00

after many months of waiting, my cousin has finally given birth to a beautiful baby girl. named after our grandma and only one-day old, she is already an amazing blessing to this family. technically we'll be second cousins but because "second cousin jamie" doesn't have that ring to it, you can just call me "auntie j."

how can you have so much love for someone you haven't even met?

note to self

2010-11-15T19:54:00.000-08:00

1. it is important to be happy for other people when they're able to do what's best for themselves. even if it means they have less time for you.

2. sometimes you just gotta let go of those impending due dates and that to-do-list-cycle. stop dwelling and take a look at what's right in front of you.

3. when it feels like everyone has forgotten you, just remember: there's nothing wrong with a little me-time.

why this weekend was so good

2010-10-24T15:29:00.000-07:00

instead of having to drive 3 1/2 hours to go home for the weekend and 3 1/2 hours back to school just to have a bunch of homework left to finish sunday night, my parents came to me. it was basically a 24-hour visit, but it was a much needed 24-hour visit. sometimes i get caught up in all these little school things that i forget how much i miss them. so we packed as much as we could into this weekend and this is why it was so good:

-lunch at the best pub in SLO (according to me and erin). yummmm turkey burgers and fries.

-wine tasting with my mom, who then but a BUNCH of bottles and left two behind for me to enjoy.

-drove out to avila valley barn to pick out some good produce and a giant pumpkin to carve with my sister.

-grocery shopping with my dad cuz my mom wanted to watch the giants' game (kind of a role reversal, huh?).

-mom's cooking! we had a delicious spaghetti meal with lots of extra sauce that my mom separated into containers and put in the freezer for some quick and easy meals in the future. such a mom thing :D

-marlee stayed the night at my place and we watched 50 first dates. adam sandler, always a classic.

-woke up early this morning and made a delicious strawberry-banana-mango smoothie to start the day.

-my parents came back over to watch the 49ers game, but my cable's lame and wasn't broadcasting it. so we were forced to listen to it on the radio, which was kinda nice and simple in a comforting way.

-while we listened marlee and i carved our pumpkin and baked the seeds.

-my dad went with my to get a new tire for my bike and now i can ride to school again!

all in all, it was a productive, funny, family-filled weekend that i really needed. i still ended up saving all my homework for sunday night, but i don't really mind. surprisingly, i miss them already.

this picture isn't from this weekend, but it's my favorite family photo of our recent alaskan adventure.

this is what i've found

2010-10-01T02:07:00.000-07:00

there are few things and even fewer people that can calm me down or ease my anxiety. i'm an extremely cautious slash nervous person and spend way too much time over-thinking things which should be considered insignificant. there are probably only three or four people who know what to do when i'm nearing that breaking point but when they're unreachable i've had to figure things out on my own. this is what i've found: illuminating my room with colorful "festive lights" my cousin sent me in a care package and listening to bing crosby sing about dreams of a white christmas and ye merry gentlemen on vinyl is one of the most relaxing slash comforting slash anxiety easing things. the memories of family gathered at the tree watching presents getting handed out or the smells of pine needles and peppermint. the scratch of the needle as bing crosby croons about the magic of christmas and the tiny colorful bulbs that dance around my window take me back to where i want to be.

something kinda beautiful

2010-09-06T22:32:00.000-07:00

The thief left it behind:

the moon

at my window.

by Ryokan

time

2010-09-06T20:19:00.000-07:00

remember:

it slips

right

through

your

fingers

with every tick

of the clock

stuck in my brain

2010-05-24T01:16:00.000-07:00

for emma

bon iver

so apropos

saw death on a sunny snow

for every life

forgo the parable

seek the light

my knees are cold

running home, running home,

running home, running home

go find another lover

to bring a..., to string along

with all your lies

you're still very lovable

i toured the light

so many foreign roads

for emma

forever ago

starts with an s, ends with an -eptum

2010-05-12T22:46:00.000-07:00

this is how i prepare myself for winter finals.

sorry mom =]

just thinking.

2010-04-01T20:44:00.000-07:00

what do you do when all your favorite people have different favorite people? who's gonna have your back?

two truths and a lie.

2010-02-26T09:28:00.000-08:00

1. my mom absolutely hates the deer that roam the hill in our backyard, using her plants as snackage. she would have me and my sister pile up rocks from outside on the back deck so that whenever the deer came around we'd be ready to scare them away. she even bought a slingshot for us to use. marz and i aren't very aggressive girls so we never threw the rocks with as much umph or as good of aim as our mom would have liked. luckily, she never found that out but continued to be angry with the deer.

2. when i was in middle school, one of my best friends and i decided we were going to become architects. our first project: a ladder that would lead to the small platform of a tree house in her grandma's backyard. we decided we would go this college she had heard was the best for architecture in california, cal poly SLO.

3. i once went to a book promotion of sorts for maurice sendak at a local bookstore. i was probably 5 or 6. i brought my copy of where the wild things are and was able to get it signed. over time i came to believe that i owned a book actually signed by maurice sendak himself, you can imagine how rad i thought that was when the recent movie hype started stirring up. unfortunately, i asked my parents about it, and it turns out it was signed by someone dressed up as a "wild thing".

can you pick out the lie?

in and out of weeks, and almost over a year

2010-02-09T00:50:00.000-08:00

my thoughts are heavy with

shoulda coulda wouldas.

i don't know where they began

but more importantly,

i can't figure out where they'll end.

soon i hope.

tonight is quiet and my thoughts persist.

i lay here wishing for a storm to come.

rain hitting the roof with my room below

rumbling thunder rolling over this town

wrapping me up

tucking me in.

these thoughts full of worry

bombard my head

just as soon as it hits the pillow.

dreams peek through

but i don't want those either.

i just want sleep.

greetings earthlings.

2010-02-04T18:23:00.000-08:00

this is marz.

it's actually pretty fitting.

sometimes she seems to be from another planet.

she's musically inclined.

last year she made a cd of tuba christmas carols.

it was...interesting.

she's in that pre-teeny-bopper phase.

she likes to keep one eye covered with her hair.

i guess you could call her a modern day pirate.

i like to make her the subject of my photos.

^this is one of my favorites^

sometimes we look alike.

i never used to believe it when people told us.

we're completely different.

but now i think i like that.

some late night thoughts

2010-01-27T00:43:00.000-08:00

1. timing is everything, but far too demanding.

2. a rainy day can be the perfect thing when you set it to the right playlist.

3. the real world is getting closer and closer each day and i have no clue what i'm going to do when it gets here.

4. silk-screening.

5. i need to get my hands on some polaroid film.

6. ukuleles.

7. the fear of falling behind.

take me back

2009-12-28T15:04:00.000-08:00

do you remember how long we waited?

months, weeks, days, and even counting down the hours til the plane landed;

the thirteen of us finally reunited.

that crazy flight filled with silly laughs

sure to annoy the other passengers surrounding our family.

all of us spread out along the rows of seats.

we swam in the ocean for hours that day.

letting the salty goodness wash over us,

too excited to worry about sunscreen and hydration.

but we paid for it later.

bending over the counters side by side,

whining for our moms to put aloe on our blistered shoulders.

you guys were so pissed,

the hours spent in the tanning salon peeling right off your backs.

we traveled in taxis packed to the brim

each time spilling out into the streets,

like a slinky crawling down the stairs.

thirteen different conversations filling the air,

as we made our way through each little adventure we had set out on.

exploring a beautiful postcard of a town that could only be reached by boat,

shopping in sweltering heat and getting a feel for the locals,

a girls' trip to get our hair tightly braided,

cooking the nine foot sailfish the boys caught on their fishing trip,

the hours spent setting up camp at the pool each day,

and savoring each moment of beach before our time was up.

i want to get back there.

to the sweaty, lazy heat cooled down by a dip in the pool.

to each uncontrollable fit of laughter.

to a week of family breakfast, lunch, and dinner.

to those peaceful nights when you could sleep easy

and there wasn't anything to worry about.

take me back,

to where you could never ask for more.

current obsessions.

2009-12-11T23:45:00.000-08:00

and so i've finally reached winter break and i'm totally stoked, but i really don't know what to do with myself. i'm still waiting to hear about one grade and can't seem to stop stressing about it. this particular grade means a lot to my gpa/major/schedule/too much to think about. needless to say, i'm freaked. i've been trying to find things to distract myself from it all: work, friendship bracelets, sugar cookies, sugar cookies with vanilla frosting, sleep, etc; however, the most effective distraction i've found has been 90s hip hop. seriously, it's perf.

i watched this movie called, the wackness, recently, probably about a month ago. super good. freaking josh from drake and josh and ben kingsley! if you haven't seen it i definitely recommend it. the movie centers around a pot dealer the summer after he graduates high school and the bond he forms with his shrink. the soundtrack is rad. totally rad. and exactly what i needed for today. so here are a few of my current obsessions (not all from the soundtrack but all equally sick):

bump n' grind (r. kelly)

can i kick it? (a tribe called quest)

season of the witch (donovan)

ignition (r. kelly)

that thing (lauryn hill even though it's not from the 90s)

gin and juice (snoop dogg)

i'll be missing you (faith evans/puff daddy)

obsessions

2009-11-10T10:37:00.000-08:00

i am pleased to say that PinkAppleCore has passed on this lovely award. the rules are to share five things you're obsessed with and then pass it on to five fabulous blogs you read. i was so excited when i scrolled down and found my name on the list. thanks for thinking i'm fabulous, PinkAppleCore! and now for my obsessions (in no particular order)...

1. making lists. i need to make lists to remember anything so my backpack is filled with my to do's written on post-its and my laptop is filled with lists and notes on virtual post-its. i even have a listography to organize my thoughts.

2. farmville on facebook. a little embarrassing to admit, but i figure i should be honest. i check my farm multiple times a day and all my roommates made fun of me until they got hooked, too! it's just a never ending cycle of plow-plant-harvest. i get hooked on games pretty easily so it's not that big of a surprise.

3. late night drives with a good soundtrack. hell, i love any drives with a good soundtrack. i feel like i can be happy no matter what as long as there's some good music in the background. which reminds me,

4. movies. when i was in middle school i had major dreams of becoming a director one day. i think i'm a little too practical to motivate those ambitions, but i will always be down for a good film. recently our cable stopped working for a week and our house became movie central. the past few movies i've watched have been "the wackness" (totally recommend it), "twilight" (it seems to always be playing somewhere in this house and we're all pretty stoked for the new moon premier), "the brothers bloom" (the story of crafty con artists and you can never go wrong with adrian brody) and "a little princess" (this post from ali and wonderland got me craving it).

5. finally, i am obsessed with this picture my auntie posted on facebook. it's of my grandparents circa 1964. so young, i don't even think they were parents yet. i made it the background of my laptop and it makes me happy every time i open it up.

and now, here are some fabulous blogs that i follow:

eating a tangerine: cuileann

jaxfacts: jax

snapshots of a young soul: the rogue hobbit

channe tells it all: channe

angel lust: kat walk

i also want to pass this award back to PinkAppleCore cuz she always show interest in what i have to say and makes me feel popular with all the comments she leaves on my posts. thanks chica!

'tis the season

2009-11-08T01:10:00.000-08:00

things are so much easier when you know what to expect. i love my traditions. new year's with hailey, easter brunch at unk's, yellow cake with chocolate frosting for my birthday, being in charge of the torch on the fourth of july, carving pumpkins with the fam, the way my aunties always know i like to put the marshmallows on the yams, the deli tray put out for dinner on christmas eve and taking my little cousins out on the hunt for rudolph's nose in the sky. things change, though. i'm all for trying new things, but it's hard to change what i know. when it comes down to it, i don't think it's so hard because of the actual changes being made, the new things i have to try. it's hard because i know it's never going to be the same. and i'm afraid i might forget.

some finishing touches

2009-10-10T14:44:00.000-07:00

after looking through the playlist i created last week, i realized it just wasn't lengthy enough and that a few songs were missing. so let me just add a few more...

21. beast of burden: the rolling stones (suuuch a good one. try comparing this intro with miley cyrus's party in the usa, i think the resemblance is what made me break down and actually like one of her songs)

22. history repeating: propellerheads feat. shirley bassey (though i've always loved this song, i must admit that my recent obsession was sparked by the season premier of the hills when just as the closing credits began to roll shirley bassey's voice pipes in with, "and it's all just a little bit of history repeating." perfection.)

23. wasted: cartel (introduced to me by one of my roomies and now i can't stop listening to it)

24. xanax: maria taylor (i rediscovered this song on an old mix cd a youth leader at my church gave me and it's so so good)

25. as much as i ever could: city and colour (i just want dallas green to serenade me forever)

enjoy =]

the (most recent) soundtrack of my life

2009-10-02T16:16:00.000-07:00

i feel like it's been a pretty solid month. throughout the past few weeks several songs have been shuffling in and out of my mind. my recent love for/obsession with some of these songs is a little embarrassing to admit, but here we go (in no particular order)...

1. empire state of mind: jay-z feat. alicia keys (the vma performance made me want to go to new york...where dreams are made of)

2. L.E.S. Artistes: santigold

3. heartbeats: jose gonzalez (a cover of the knife's more electro original)

4. she wolf: shakira (except this video is a little too freaky)

5. wise up: amiee mann (this video is from the movie magnolia)

6. chan chan: buena vista social club

7. let's get it on: marvin gaye (seriously, this song is way too good. one of my favorite movie scenes of all time is this one from high fidelity where jack black covers this classic)

8. elevator love letter: stars (the opening chords and the bassline that skips right along side with it, aaahhhh. superb)

9. love song: the cure (i once had the pleasure of playing this song for a youth event at my church. love the bassline. 311 does a really nice cover, too)

10. your hand in mine: explosions in the sky (lyricless and beautiful)

11. post-war: m. ward (you gotta really listen to the lyrics)

12. skeleton boy: friendly fires (i know i've posted this video before, but it never gets out of my head)

13. good girls go bad: cobra starship (i lovelovelove everything about this video)

14. good ol' fashion nightmare: matt & kim (definitely would have been my number one must-see band at outside lands this year. unfortunately i was too broke to buy a ticket)

15. party in the usa: miley cyrus (the first song i've ever liked from her. just makes you wanna dance, i swear)

16. we are not a football team: minus the bear (always)

17. ready for the floor: hot chip (check out the video!!)

18. let's stay together: al green (there's a special place in my heart for al green. for some reason i really started liking him my freshman year of high school. that year one of my favorite christmas presents was a cd of his greatest hits)

19. best i ever had: drake (i hated it at first, but it's become a sort of anthem among my friends)

20. sweet dreams: beyonce (she's too good for her own good)

YYYs 101 (by request)

2009-09-24T00:05:00.002-07:00

and now because of a request made by this one, here is the extent of my knowledge and simple love for the yeah yeah yeahs. honestly, i don't know too much about them, but i have always loved their contribution to music: a three-piece, chick-led, indie rock band without a bass player. normally this kind of band wouldn't make it passed the middle school talent show. i'm a bass player myself and if i had a dollar for every time someone told me they didn't realize which part i was contributing to the song until either i dropped out or everyone else in the band dropped out, i'd probably have about $27, but i don't play too often so that's saying a lot. so it has always amazed me that the band could have such a full sound with just guitar, drums, and vocals.

for my 15th birthday my dad took me to my first concert, live 105's BFD. it's an annual, all-day concert consisting of three different stages and the subsonic tent. that year the yeah yeah yeahs were the first band on the main stage. a friend of my dad's warned him of their performance calling the lead singer's, karen o, stage antics "orgasmic". it was hard to picture what exactly that meant in my naive 15-year old mind, but after watching the show i'm pretty sure i figured out what was meant by the comment.

their sound is chant-heavy, filled with tight snares, danceable beats, and jagged riffs, enough to get anyone out of their seat and moving. here are a few of my favorite songs:

-maps (all the components of this song are superb. it includes one of my favorite drum beats ever causing me to fall slightly in love with brian chase, the echo of nick zinner's guitar, and, though i don't know if i fully understand what might be intended by them, the lyrics are beautiful. the video is simple and perfect)

-date with the night (because it makes me feel like i should be up to no good.)

-mystery girl (i just really like the sillyness of lyrics. "take a deep breath, babe, cuz we just started".)

-gold lion (though the lyrics aren't easy to figure out like so many other artists out there, i love looking at each song in bits and phrases. especially for this one.)

and finally here's an "track by track" interview they did for their newest album "it's blitz!"

space cadet

2009-08-26T00:11:00.000-07:00

i'm lost in space today.

floating through a universe of thoughts

i want to close my eyes and slip deeper

falling out of orbit and into the stars

i lack the focus to listen to what you're saying

i don't want to know about

the laws of motion/

/descarte's view on metaphysics/

/why you straightened your hair today/

/how it's everyone else's fault but yours

i only want to stay in space

just for today.

because lobsters can't cook

2009-08-17T13:55:00.000-07:00

i remember looking forward to making this cake for me and my roommates the whole drive from the Bay to SLO. delicious brown sugar topping, caramelized pineapple rings with cherries in the centers, all on top of the fluff of a buttery yellow cake. it was all coming together wonderfully. i successfully melted the butter and sugar together without burning myself like last time and the cake rose without overflowing out of the pan.

i pulled it out of the oven and let it cool for a bit. i grabbed a plate big enough for my cake to sit and put on a pair of green oven mitts. placing the plate over the pan i prepared myself to turn this pineapple upside down cake right side up. mid-flip, the pan slipped out of my sock puppet hands and delicious buttery goodness landed all over the kitchen counter. i pieced together what i could, but i lost my appetite as the image of the cake i had in my head disappeared. and that is why lobsters can't cook.

what's troubling me today

2009-08-11T15:11:00.000-07:00

loose ends

i forget lots of things

information just seems to slip away

right through my fingers

until all i'm holding on to is a tiny little corner

a thread of what i used to know

i forget especially when i'm in between

family to friends

school to home

class to class

am to pm

i forget and it's so easy

i forget that it IS so easy

to lose track of a thought or motivation

or let go of a memory

that i once tried to clutch so tightly

and i worry

with forgetting being so easy, so prevalent

how will i remember to remember?

the story of my life

2009-08-02T14:26:00.000-07:00

the other day as i was making my usual rounds on facebook, i came across a note my auntie recently posted. it's a poem written by portia nelson and every time i read it, it made more and more sense.

AUTOBIOGRAPHY IN FIVE SHORT CHAPTERS

by Portia Nelson

I

I walk down the street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk

I fall in.

I am lost ... I am helpless.

It isn't my fault.

It takes me forever to find a way out.

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I pretend I don't see it.

I fall in again.

I can't believe I am in the same place

but, it isn't my fault.

It still takes a long time to get out.

III

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I see it is there.

I still fall in ... it's a habit.

my eyes are open

I know where I am.

It is my fault.

I get out immediately.

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I walk around it.

I walk down another street.

my auntie commented on it saying, "i think i'm still stuck on chapter 3." i'm pretty sure that's the chapter i'm stuck on, too.

procrastination.

2009-08-02T14:06:00.000-07:00

so here i am, sitting in the library and avoiding the studying i should be doing for an important dynamics midterm which will take place tomorrow morning. yuck. i feel like getting my study materials together and actually arriving at the library is step one of this unfortunate situation, and considering there are only two other steps (the actually studying and then the taking of the exam) i have decided to reward myself with some quality time with my dear friend, LEON (my laptop). so here i am, back where we started.

also my thoughts have finally arrived and are ready to be shared with al of you, but let me start by answering your questions =]

1. here's a list of artists i am in love with at the moment

-matt and kim

-boy in static

-explosions in the sky

-this beautiful song by m. ward of she & him

-and one song in particular from friendly fires with a perfectly matching video

2. lollipops... i love sour things and i feel like a sour-ish peach lollipop would be absolutely delicious right now. they always make peach candy so sweet, so sour peach would make me very happy.

3. summer and daycare go hand in hand for me. my best friend and i would bring "boredom packs" with us everyday. we were never really bored at daycare so the packs weren't even completely necessary, but we loved them. each pack had to include the following:

-silly putty

-a deck of cards

-i feel like we each had watches or something too

-a rock to play hopscotch with

-and anything we found outside that was worth keeping or a little toy from home

what would you like to know?

2009-07-29T00:33:00.000-07:00

hello all,

i'm at a loss for words these days but would love to post something new. so i leave it up to you, the few who actually keep up with the silly things i have to say. what would you like to know?

jamie

cupcakes in the sunset

2009-07-14T00:24:00.000-07:00

and now the story of the tye dyed cupcakes

unfortunately they needed a little nip/tuck cosmetic surgery

there were colorful little bebes, too

homemade chocolate frosting

and some crumbled heath bar to top it all off

we decided they looked like cupcakes children would make, but i told her that that's probably how i would be represented as a cupcake anyway. she smiled and said, "you didn't have to say that, but it's probably true."

in the early hours of our independence

2009-07-04T03:48:00.000-07:00

today was filled with the usual frontierland park festivities, running into everyone and their mom, delicious food (of course some BBQ), and, my favorite, fireworks and the smoky haze they leave behind. my aunties and ma bundle up and sit a safe distance from the fireworks usually heading back inside before we even reach the grand finale.

being the most trustworthy of the cousins, i am given full power over my uncle's blow torch to light all the fireworks. it's really like a creative responsibility when you think about it. i organize them into tri-fectas and quadruple-fectas of medium sized explosions accented with bebe ones surrounding them. my uncles cheer for more while they puff on their cigars and my dad and i lead my cousins in interpretive sparkler dancing through the street in front of the house.

our stomachs stuffed with corn casserole, potato salad, ribs with meat that falls right off the bone, and desserts up the ying yang, how can you not love this holiday?

radiohead: an acquired sound

2009-06-29T12:13:00.000-07:00

radiohead is one of my absolute favorite bands. i remember my dad being pretty pumped to buy their kid A album when i was in 6th grade and thinking it was the strangest music ever. totally couldn't compare to americana CD by the offspring or green day's dookie. pshh, filled with my middle school angst, i was sure i had much better taste than my dad.

i picked it up again toward the beginning of junior year and fell in love. i listened to kid A along with OK computer throughout my 20 minute drive to and from school for months, later adding the bends to my collection. i couldn't get enough. and then, when i found out there was another album coming out last year, i was stoked! i downloaded it for free along with thousands of other fans, but felt too guilty about listening for free that i went out and bought a copy of the actual CD.

when i found they were playing in golden gate park last summer, i knew that i would always regret it if i didn't see them despite the cost. so i went and fell even more in love. here are a few of my favorites. follow the links and take some time to fall in love, too.

randoms

talk show host (from the romeo and juliet soundtrack)

in rainbows

all i need

house of cards (super sick video)

reckoner

and if you've got a lot of time watch the scotish mist film which covers the whole album

kid A

everything in it's right place (probably one of my absolute favorites)

optimistic

idioteque (amazing blends)

OK computer

paranoid android (i didn't watch this video all the way through but it looks pretty interesting)

karma police (always reminds me of george orwell's 1984)

the bends

fake plastic trees

the bends (but you gotta really listen to the lyrics)

pablo honey

creep (the song that made it all happen)

post-its from last summer

2009-06-29T02:20:00.000-07:00

radiohead: weird fishes/arpeggi

it's the early AM and i'm in the deepest ocean. the bottom of the sea. i'm stuck in that tired but restless place, where you can either give in to the pressure of your eyelids closing or stay awake anxiously awaiting the night to happen. this was one of my favorite songs when i first listened to in rainbows. such a perfect title, too. the notes of each song swirling in and out of your ears like rain dripping on the windshield of a car as the wipers swish back and forth across the glass.

i can see that JUMBO stage at outside lands engulfing the band playing the music they believed in so much they didn't care if they sold it for nothing. their passion professed in the the middle of golden gate park, the multicolored lights like strands of rain frozen in a storm, and the arpeggiated notes swiftly hitting my ears. it was all i needed in that moment. with my dad by my side, that was it. perfection.

sitting in the kitchen

2009-06-24T16:54:00.000-07:00

Three generations of women before mine walked in and out of the kitchen. Each time lifting the lid off a pot, stirring whatever happened to be inside,

and bringing in the delicious smells of my favorite foods. Homemade rice and beans, sopes, enchiladas, and flautas all topped off with my grandma’s special chile, so green and bold it’s enough to make even the most adventurous eaters nervous.

My grandma who told me to always make sure I'm satisfied with what I've accomplished at the end of the day. "Don't worry about the money, mi'ja. We need to look out for the people. I know you will."

Three generations of women passing down recipes and tastes that make me proud to call myself the fourth.

changes?

2009-06-20T08:07:00.000-07:00

hello all who read this, aka holls,

i'm thinking of changing the title of this blog to "somethings from space". i think it sounds less mysterious cuz i'm really not so mysterious. haha, i don't know if that really makes sense. i'm just really wishy-washy and need to sit on things for a bit before i can fully commit. even if it's just the title of a blog. but it's important, right? let me know what you think!

sincerely,

jamie =]

the adventures of mash pit and james

2009-06-18T00:53:00.000-07:00

finding that last poem and a satisfying day with one of my favorite buds has motivated me to give it another shot and try my hand at poetry once again.

just what i needed

this is us never skipping a beat

back on the beach

where i found God in three genuine friends and your guitar

cleaner than my teeth WHITE with a sparkle in the smile

just the two of us

touching on our recent troubles

and the more unrecent but ample memories that define our friendship

BLUE crystal gems found deep in a cave

picking up each others' sentences

dropped in conversations with strangers that don't belong in "us"

but are amused by our inside jokes whose origins are sometimes unknown

even to me and you

sun-dried tomato RED in the heat of summer

i fill you in on all the things i've kept tucked away

and you tell me that you're proud of me

i needed that

oil slick Barrabas hair BLACK

and it's just the two of us

while the other two are halfway around the world

making the differences we expected them to make

but we pick up right where we left off

SILVER

never skipping a beat

my first post

2009-06-15T22:43:00.000-07:00

superheroes and comic books have always been something of interest for me. my dad is a big marvel junkie and it's always seemed to rub off on me. when i was little i spent a lot of time watching teenage mutant ninja turtles and the x-men with him and when i found out he had stacks of comic books in our garage. my favorite ones are the origins of superheroes. they tell you how an outcast like peter parker became a super strong webhead swinging through the city and gamma radiation caused scientist, bruce banner, to become a massive green monster.

i love the common themes that relate each character to the others. they're all so misunderstood and trapped between the desire to lead the normal life of their alter ego and the responsibility of saving the world. anyhow, i wrote this poem my freshman year of high school and came across it the other day. so here it goes...

superhero

you look like a fool

up there in the air.

with your bright red tights

and matching cape.

so you can fly,

who cares??

it doesn't mean you need to show it off,

saving lives and what not.

i could save lives, too,

if i wanted to.

i mean,

who really wants infinite strength?

i know i don't.

plus,

your work schedule sucks.

my life is way better than yours.

people don't depend on me

and nobody cares

if i mess up.

the life of a superhero is so overrated.

but, you know,

if you ever need a sidekick or anything...

i'm available.